Must say its been tough and the road gets tougher from here on. Just read "Lessons in Love, by Way of Economics" by Ben Stein and I agree with his take on love and relationship.

My sister just got out of a 15 month relationship. Conversely, I just got into one. It occurs to me that this whole relationship business is quite tricky. The more you give, the more you expect and the more dissapointed you get when nothing goes your way. Rather, if you don't overanalyze and try "too" hard, you will do perfectly fine. Not saying, we should not try, but try to the extent where we are not pushing the limit and stepping out of our comfort zones.

.. okay. This whole relationship talk is getting me sick. I'm having a ton of relationship problems right now. There are just so many tension and conflict with other individuals right now that I am semi-postponing my happiness. This might sound selfish but I'm finally setting happiness as my top priority. I need this. I don't have any family here, I don't have much. I need this.

i'm getting there.